yesterday i had around 150-200 calories which i'm okay about

today i've had about the same.

i haen't really lost much and im planning to fast tomorrow

but i have to have a bowl of cereal or something friday as i have a gcse in he morning. but then i can carry on my fast through the weekend :)

my glandular fever is making me feel so weak atm and i know if i eat it won't help so it motivates me not to eat.

i'm dreading my exam on friday. but fingers crossed i will do okay.

i normally binge on sunday's but this time i promise myself i will not!!!

xxx

 okay so i haven't eaten for 6-7 days now
and i don't feel hungry at all
i never do when i don't eat for days
and i hate it
because it feels like im failing 
and i need to do more
but what more can i possibly do
it's like i've failed
but i know my body can't cope with no food, so why does it not cpmplain
does anyone else get this?
it always happens to me

WORST FUCKING DAY EVER.
WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE MY MUM'S FUCKING BIRTHDAY.
I WAS ON A FAST AND THEN WE GO OUT FOR CHINESE.
I HATE MYSELF
I REALLY DO
ALL I WANT TO DO I BE SKINNY BUT THERES ALL THESE FUCKING OBSTACLES IN THE WAY.
ARG
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
WHY AM I JUST NOT HAPPY WITH LIFE ANYMORE.